It's been a while

So it has been quite some time since I have taken the time to post on this old blog here. My apologies.

So what has been transpiring in my life, you ask? What's been making me tick?

Autumn is an excellent season, that's for sure, but I find that I begin to reminisce more in this season than any other time of the year. It's almost as if I sit back and say, "what have I done with my life thus far this year?" I find myself remembering the "good times" and summer time and many other situations that have come and gone and I am still here longing after. I don't want to be here at school. I want to stay out late and run through the grass with no shoes on, I want to be apart from streetlights and car alarms, and I want to be in love and have nothing else to care of worry about. This burden of life troubles me, not in the extreme that I would love to "off myself" and be done with it, but more in the sense that these days I don't want to do anything but drop out of school and live my life apart from all of this madness. I want to write, play music, start a family, and do things I like. I don't want to worry about the next assignment, I don't want to become so stressed out that my stomach hurts, I don't wish for this place where the highway is constantly busy and the money is made, and I certainly don't desire this feeling that I am unhappy simply due to the fact that I have a project to finish.

I realized this on the trip up to Marquette, Michigan that I took this past weekend with Grace. We drove for six hours, and it was one of the most peaceful things that has happened to me in a long time. We could drive, listen to music, choose to not listen to music (if we wished), talk about life, each other, whatever we wanted. And that was amazing. As we drove, we got farther and farther away from the things that held us captive. There were fewer cars, fewer restaurants, fewer streetlights, fewer buildings, fewer things altogether. The further we went, the more relaxed I felt. I was able to appreciate a Northern Wisconsin autumn, and see the gorgeous color that flecked the trees as well as the ground. It was beautiful, plain and simple.

There is no way that I am going to waste my life away in suburbia. NO WAY.

And another thing. I'm in love. I know this sounds ridiculous, and I really hate to hear about others' love lives, but it's a fact. I have found a love that is pure, that loves me even though I am a jerk and let people down. It's a love that thinks I am funny, even though everyone knows I'm not. It's a love that I relate to, a love that doesn't bore me. A love that is my best friend, that I can spend time with and not wish I was somewhere else. It's incredible. Grace and I will be married, and I have no problem with that whatsoever. I realized that this weekend.

I have so much more to say, but I am in Bib Interp and my battery is going to die. Those thoughts will have to wait.