yearning for Narnia

I really hate living. Don't take me wrong, I love the people I live with, I love my friends, I love my family. I love viewing the creation that my Lord and God has blessed me with, and I certainly love recreation such as skateboarding, snowboarding, guitar playing, writing, etc. However, I am really sick of the life in which we live. I know that my last post discussed this to some extent, but as I explained, my battery died and I couldn't quite finish.

Like I said in my last post, I am in love. I wouldn't trade that for anything, and that is not something that I am hating at this present time, by any means. Grace is to me what her name implies. The fact that I am blessed by this amazing woman of God who supports me and loves me no matter what is nothing short of the "Amazing Grace" of God. I know, it's a cheesy line that I will most likely causing her to roll her eyes at for the rest of our lives.

What I do hate is the triviality of suburbia, the triviality of earning tons of money only to save it, the triviality of the 9-5 shift, the triviality of keeping up with the Joneses. I feel somewhat like the Teacher:

¹ The words of the Teacher, son of David, king in Jerusalem:

² "Meaningless! Meaningless!"
says the Teacher.
"Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless."

³ What does man gain from all his labor
at which he toils under the sun?

⁴ Generations come and generations go,
but the earth remains forever.

⁵ The sun rises and the sun sets,
and hurries back to where it rises.

⁶ The wind blows to the south
and turns to the north;
round and round it goes,
ever returning on its course.

-Ecclesiastes 1:1-6

I walked into our suite the other night, to see that my suitemate Kale was watching the end of the Chronicles of Narnia movie. I sat down to watch this with him, and was surprised by the fact that I was almost brought to tears by it. I wanted nothing more than to run off to an imaginative place, to not strive here anymore, to simply live my life and not worry about the "meaningless" things of this world. I have been yearning for "Narnia" lately. However, there is hope for me:

⁷ Go, eat your food with gladness, and drink your wine with a joyful heart, for it is now that God favors what you do. ⁸ Always be clothed in white, and always anoint your head with oil. ⁹ Enjoy life with your wife, whom you love, all the days of this meaningless life that God has given you under the sun— all your meaningless days. For this is your lot in life and in your toilsome labor under the sun. ¹⁰ Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the grave, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom.

Ecclesiastes 9:7-10

That's what I plan to do. God help me, I'm going to live this meaningless life.